９月２３日/上記掲載写真は昨朝の我が家に幾つかあるベランダの風景です。今年初のハイビスカスです。このハイビスカスには思い入れがあります。一度、枯れてしまいました。６年以上も前のことです。それでも毎日、水を上げ続けました。いつまで経っても枯れたままの状態で、諦めかけました。ところが、ある日のこと例によって朝に水をあげていると茎の下の方に小さなグリーンが芽吹いているではありませんか。思わず、私の表情は緩みました。不思議なもので、キッチンにもどると家人が「何、笑ってるの。エッ？」と言った途端、彼女も笑顔に変わり「アッ、分かった」といってベランダに出ました。なかなか見つからない様子で「ネーッ、何処、どこよ」と不機嫌になりました。意地悪な私は依然、ニヤニヤしたままでした。と、突然に「アッ、あった！」と満面笑顔になりました。諦めかけていた希望に、光明が射したときの感動を味わいました。このさりげないラッキーは、本当に人を明るくさせます。昔、「パピヨン」という映画がありました。ダスティン・ホフマンとスティーブ・マックィーンの主演でした。二人は南海の孤島にある牢獄に収監されてる設定で、犯罪の質は大泥棒に汚職大物官吏と、かなり違いますが孤島の二人は仲良くなります。私の記憶が正しければの話ですが、ある日ダスティン・ホフマンが希望のように大事にしていたものを看守が処分してしまいます。彼の落胆と言ったら、死にたいくらいの表情でした。古い日本映画にも、木村功主演の刑務所内の犯罪者を描いた映画がありますが、同じようなシーンがあったような気がします。限られた空間の中で、自由を奪われても希望を心に秘めて生きる心情は理解出来る気が致します。実は、私達もかなり精神的に限られた空間におり、自由を求めているのではないでしょうか。些か小市民的ではありますが、実はささやかな自由、日常のささやかなラッキーは大切なのでしょう。以前にも書いていますが、因に、このハイビスカスの葉が小さいのには訳があります。このベランダは、陽光が強いため葉が大きいと葉の裏側にアブラムシが一杯付くのです。翌年からは葉が小さくなり、アブラムシも消えました。植物の不思議を知りました。アブラムシがいなくなって葉が大きくなったのですが、またまたアブラムシです。今年はずっと小さい葉で、アブラムシはいません。嘗て、事務所の先輩が性質の悪い病気で闘病生活をした時、私はこのハイビスカスの復活を手紙にしました。何の慰めにもならなかったとは思いますが、復活の感動に舞い上がってしまったのでしょう。現在はお元気で復帰していらっしゃいますので、とんだ笑い話でしょうか。
September 23 /The upload photograph mentioned above is the scenery which it photographed in a porch in my house on the morning of yesterday.It is the first hibiscus this year.There is intensity to this hibiscus.It has died once.It is trouble more than six years ago.I continued still putting up water every day.Because it is the circumstances that became refined even if this plant passes between long time, I was beginning to give up it.However, one day.When I put up water as usual in the morning,small green sends out a bud under the stem, after that my expression became loose naturally.I think it is a mysterious thing when I come back to the kitchen, my wife said “what’s laughing?……..oh!!!”.After that she turns into a smile as soon as she said .She was said,”Ahaan, I got it!” and appeared in the porch.She became displeased with the circumstance that was not readily found “Hey, wherever, wherever”.I who was unkind was still smirking.When she found out that, she shouted “there it is, so cute!!” suddenly, it was a whole face smile.In the hope that it was beginning to give up, it tasted an impression when the light shined.This casual good fortune lets it really light a person.There was a movie called “the papillon” when I was a student.It was the leading actors of Dustin Hoffman and Steve McQueen.They are setting confined in the prison in the solitary island of southern seas, and they are considerably different,one is a corruption big name public employee and another one is a master thief, as for the quality of the crime, two people become to make friendship because their are just two in there.If my memory is might be right, one day,a prison guard disposes of the thing which Dustin Hoffman was careful with like hope.To tell his discouragement, he had an expression so as he wants to die.There is the movie which drew a criminal in the prison Isao Kimura played the leading part in an old Japanese movie, a similar scene feels like there having been it.Even if you are deprived of freedom in limited space, you can understand feelings it hides hope in your heart, and to live like that.In fact, we might be in the limited space considerably mentally,and we will demand freedom?It is like a petit bourgeois story, but, in fact, the small freely everyday and small good fortune will be slightly important.By the way, there is reason in the leaf of this hibiscus being small.Because this porch is strong in sunlight, a lot of plant louses are assigned to the backside of the leaf if a leaf is big.A leaf shrank from the next year, and the plant louse faded away, too.I knew the wonder of the plant(For sure…. I wrote this story at once).A plant louse disappears, and a leaf grew big, but it is a plant louse once again.With a much smaller leaf, there is not the plant louse this year.Once,when the senior of the office which I worked as before fought against illness by the bad disease of the property, I made forwarding with the revival of this hibiscus as a letter.I think that it became no comfort, I will have soared up into the impression of the hibiscus revival without permission.Will it be a terrible funny story now, because that person is well, and he returns when he gets health?
’10 23 September
