１０月９日/本日、午前１１時から友人の告別式に出掛けました。車で行こうか、電車で行こうか迷いました。出掛けに車庫で頭を打ち、一瞬高速の交通渋滞が頭に浮かび止めようかと思いましたが車に致しました。高速に乗ったら、この通りです。ところが、大きな事故であったにも拘らず式場に時間前に着きました。享年５７歳、死因は肝細胞癌。奥さんに伺うと、肝臓の裏に出来たラグビーボール程の腫瘍で、見つけ難い質の悪い癌だったそうです。遺影を観ても信じられず、ボーッとしていたのですが、最後のお別れの際、その変わり果てた姿に思わず目の前がぼやけてしまいました。訃報を聞いたのは三日前です。闘病も知りませんでした。いずれ遠からず、我が身に降り掛かる問題ですが、最後をどう締めくくるかは重要な問題です。
October 9 /I went to the funeral service of my friend today at 11:00 a.m.It was at a loss whether I should have gone by car whether you would make it a subway.I hit the head when going out in a garage, and the traffic jam of the highway floated to my head instantly.Thus it intended to take a subway, but I finally chose the car.It was a situation such as the publication photograph as soon as my car was in the highway.However, it arrived at the ceremonial hall before time though it was a big accident.Age at death 57 years old, the cause of death are hepatocellular carcinomas.Appearing seems to have been a tumor of the rugby ball which there was on the back of the liver when I asked his wife.It seems to have been bad cancer of the properties that it was hard to find.I was absentminded without being believed even if I watched his deadee.In the case of the last parting, my eyes have still become dim in the figure which entirely changed unintentionally.It is three days ago that I heard an obituary.I did not know his fight against illness either.This thing is a problem to befall oneself soon sometime soon, but it is an important problem how you complete the last of your life.
ある日の教室風景です。先日お伝えした日捲りカレンダーが活躍致しております。ことしも芸術祭明けからが勝負でしょうか。頑張って下さい。夕方から、理事を務めている協会の総会に出掛けました。久しぶりでしたので、珍しいものでも観るような目で見られてしまいました。総会が終わり、帰りがけに私の古い友人I君に世話になっているという方から名刺を貰いましたが世間は狭いと感じました。総会中でもM美大のK教授の話が出たのですが、その人もお同じ頃知り合った友人で１９７０年頃を懐かしく思い出しました。この度亡くなった友人も含めて１９７０年頃、中央線沿線でよく遊びました。遊びというのは、演劇集団やミニコミ誌の発行、展覧会などです。大学は紛争の名残で、誰もかまってくれず自分たちで遊ぶ以外楽しみはありませんでした。福生にあった友人の米軍ハウスにもよく遊びに行きました。もっとも、私は車の維持費が掛かりアルバイトに精を出しておりました。世間は狭いなと思った日でした。只今、青春まっただ中の若者も皆必死です。現場で接していると、ひしひしと感じます。無気力にならず、私ももうひと頑張りでしょうか。Another Function次回の作家から資料が届きました。これから本江先生にテキスト原稿催促です。
It is classroom scenery of one day.The block calendar calendar which I told you about plays a role the other day.Will they come to do their best after an art festival this year?Please do your best.I went to the general meeting of the association where I served as a director from the evening.Because it was after a long absence, even a rare thing has been seen by the eye that it watched.A general meeting was over, and I took a business card from the one to be taken care of by my old friend Daizo Ishida to be about to return.I felt that the world was really small.A story of Professor Nobutaka Kotake of Musashino Art University was given in a general meeting, but the person was the friend who got to know at the same time, and I longed for about 1970.This time it was so, in about 1970, we played well along Chuo Line with them include the late friend,too.The play the performance of the drama group,publication of the communication among limited number of people magazine, exhibition holding.The university of those days was remains of the disputes, and, as for the student, there was not enjoying it without the teacher doing a satisfactory class except that we played ourselves.I went out to the United States Armed Forces house of the friend whom there was in Fussa to play well.It took the maintenance cost of the car, and I worked hard at a part-time job in fact.It was the day when I thought that the world was small today.All the youth youths right in the middle are desperate now.I feel that it contacts pressingly on the actual spot.Will I do my best a little more without becoming feeble?A document arrived from the next artist of an exhibition held in Another Function.I am a repeated demand of the text manuscript for Mr. Kunio Motoe from now on.
’10 9 October
